I must have heard the preacher say a thousand times that there are no U Haul trailers following behind hearses. I heard it again by the radio host this morning and it got me thinking about this my dying wish. We all carry a lot of extra baggage. Guilt from things we’ve done or haven’t done. The words spoken in haste or in anger. The selfish thoughts and deeds. The shame over not being the son or daughter you feel you ought to be perhaps. Baggage. Whatever it is. The point is that we all carry around something.
On the day that the prophet Samuel died all of Israel gathered themselves together, and lamented him, and buried him. He had an incredible influence on literally thousands. On the other hand when the rich land owner and herder, Nabal, died there is no mention of mourners or sorrow. His servants and his very own wife disliked the man. Nabal had a lot of baggage. I am sure Samuel did too (somewhere in his soul) but Samuel did not carry it around with him and he lived his life for others.
Nabal only lived for himself.
I want to live my life for others. I want even my act of dying to be an inspiration and help to others. Not in the way that Nabal’s death was of course. I am thinking about adding to my will to have a U Haul trailer pulled along behind my hearse. Not to bury my stuff with me but to be symbolic that I am taking all of my baggage with me. I want everyone to be released from anything they may be holding onto regarding me. Any thoughtless thing I may have said. Any ignorant act. I am sure there are many. Any careless behavior. I want to free people from all of that. I want my friends and family to be able to in their thoughts load all of that up into my trailer and consider it buried with me. Morbid thought perhaps. But I do not want any unfinished business messing with people after I am gone.
Of course, I am going to begin today releasing the people in my life from obligation to me. I want to give out kindness with no expectation of getting it in return. I want to be a gentleman to men and ladies alike simply because it is right. I do not want any un-cashed checks or any unpaid debts. I am going to start unloading all of that baggage now. I want the memory people have of me to inspire them.
I want to be like Samuel in many ways. I do not want to be like Nabal. He was such a man that no one could even reason with him. He was self centered and selfish. He was greedy and thoughtless unless the thoughts revolved around himself. I refuse to be like that. Samuel was for others and loved by many. I want to be always for others. Freeing others. Helping others. So if you see a U Haul behind a hearse think of me. And remember that there is nothing of any value that you can take with you except the love and kindness you have shared.
Thank you for spending this brief time to read about my dying wish.
Kind regards to you always and forever,
As a side note; this kind of thinking always comes full circle and blesses the bearer thereof.
It is a pay-it-forward mindset without any thought of a payback.
If you have tried it you understand exactly what I am talking about.
I would love your comments below regarding any of this. Your comments often are the only way that I can know you have been here and have been helped here (or inspired or intrigued). Otherwise I only know that several have visited not knowing who. You are free of my expectations but if you’re so inclined would you leave a comment? Either way, thank you again for visiting. Kind regards again, always, and forever.